I Wanted To Get Better, I Just Couldn’t Start
A few years ago, I was dealing with anxiety and depression. My energy was low, My blood work was normal, but my body felt weak. I was doing pilates and kickboxing, but I still felt weak . There was a heavy feeling in the center of my chest. My thoughts were chaotic and repetitive, I couldn’t think positively about myself. My environment felt suffocating. People would say, “Go outside,” “Do something,” “Try this.” but my energy was so low that I could not do any of it instead I stayed in bed for a long time.
I tried breathing exercises from YouTube, It didn’t help. I thought I needed a teacher so during COVID, I signed up for online classes but I struggled to show up. I snoozed through classes and missed them.
I kept searching for a solution and acted impulsively, I signed up for five courses and spent $5000. I had no clarity or inspiration so I didn’t even complete them. I felt hopeless, I couldn’t cry, my body was holding tears in because I was told that strong people don’t cry and although i wanted to, I felt like my tears had frozen and there was no form of release I knew, I was holding everything in like a volcano on the verge of bursting.
I started to sense a feeling of numbness in my chest, my fingers were trembling, I got black bumps all over my skin, due to stress and anxiety. My health took a hit as I was only on achievement mode: doing more, being more, being “successful.” I couldn’t function in that state. I needed to stop.
At the time, I was in India with family during COVID. I realized I needed to leave and get back to routine so I packed my bags and booked a flight back to the US. After I landed, I started morning yoga with an in-person teacher. I did private training for a couple of months. Then I built my own practice and started waking up at 4am.
I also found a friend who practiced yoga, we met at Boston Common at 6:30am to practice. It slowly became a routine, I added swimming, yoga, and daily walking (5,000 steps). I booked a yoga teacher training (YTT) to deepen my practice
Then my emotions started to move, tears came back. I cried during yin yoga, meditation, and restorative classes. My teachers supported me and helped me feel safe while I released what I had been holding.
Yoga gave me my life back. It helped me release emotions through movement, breathwork, and meditation. That healing changed my body and my mind.
This is the work I do with my clients now: personalized support that addresses the body and the deeper layers underneath it, not just surface-level fixes.
Lastly, You don’t have to wait until you hit a breaking point. If you’re tired of cycling through motivation, burnout, and starting over, I can help you build a steady practice that supports your body and your mind. Reply to this email and I’ll tell you how we can work together.
Ways To Connect With Me
Free adult yoga class (in-person)
Sunday, 8th February in Sammamish- This is a gentle, all-levels class focused on breath, movement, and presence. Come exactly as you are.
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